| It's Been So Long.........Too Long....... |
[26 Sep 2009|08:05am] |
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Hi, remember me?
Sarah, Indonesian, astronomy geek, supposed indie lover?
The thing is I missed having real internet friends. Well, apparently that sounded weird but what I meant is some complete strangers that I met on the internet because of similar interests and whatnot.
Pretty much what I do on the internet nowadays is just connecting with people I know and used to know on Facebook, and lately it had became very tiring.
I guess I'm not as edgy as I used to be nowadays. I rarely go on forums, comment on people's blog, somehow I'm more cautious of what I might say, therefore holding back on just about everything. I must admit my current school has something to do with this, I'm really worn out by it
Truth
I MISS YOU MY INTERNET FRIENDS
I miss communicating with people halfway around the world to talk about things we like.
I don't know when I could actually make a great comeback, but yeah, I believe I can promise you all at least next year, by the time I finish High School :D
Then again, I wish you all a good life, and may you get everything that you need and want.
PS. I'm on a Radiohead rampage now. I think I know someone that can totally be the young Chinese version of Thom Yorke
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| Tomorrow, I will come back, |
[12 Jul 2008|01:14pm] |
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and all I want to do now is cry, hide, and take a quick ticket to Makassar. Can't we skip this shit?
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| And my 10th grade academic obligation has stopped! (for this time) |
[23 Jun 2008|04:44pm] |
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The Killers - Glamourous Indie Rock & Roll [zomg i miss home] |
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Just this morning, we finished our semester exams. And I was like "OHYAYFREEDAM!" but actually, I have severe stomachaches, the nervous stomachache type, which only produce digestive gases, without having actual solid (or liquid) contents (as in, SHIT) in it. Why? ( Why? )
Well, I'll be back home in Duri in less then a week. I'm so excited I've been screaming and jumping around like Obama's coming to town.
I'm on the top bed now, my roommate is sleeping under me. My desk is a mess. Maybe I'll show you a picture of my new room when I've cleaned it up.
And maybe more pictures of my friends sometimes. Yay
Thank you very much, don't hit any trees on the way
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| abandonment, much? |
[19 May 2008|10:19am] |
I have a stomachache.
Everything is so uninspiring these days, and the internet sucks and I can't concentrate on anything now.
Astronomy was fun though. And I proved well.
Maybe I will update more often if anyone cares. But eventually I will. Anyway, I'm finishing 10th grade and off to get a new room with this new roommate which has a cool name and is very nice.
Signing off
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| phuket, thailand! |
[22 Mar 2008|02:39pm] |
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God, already 3/4 of my vacation spent. Uh-oh. And all I've been doing is sleeping, eating, cooking, and a short bicycle riding trip. I haven't met anyone, other than Yurie and Yeyek passing on the street yesterday.
new discoveries: Bat For Lashes, Fujiya & Miyagi
but I made really delicious pancakes. Though I used salted butter. It's still good.
but herrre, let me give you a picture I took yesterday
and, snickers bar in the fridge = bad idea
ETA: Bounty Bars = YUCK
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| mintaka-alnilam-alnitak |
[20 Mar 2008|10:31pm] |
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there's Whitney Houston on TV |
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I have come to conclude that the Snape story must be the saddest unrequited love story in the history of modern literature.
My dad is totally awesome. I bet God sucked all the attention for me from other people and gives it solely to my dad, because no one truly cars about me but my dad.
It'a very intriguing that all these things have made me missed the old days so much. Made me feel that I was awesome before and now I just suck. Sometimes I retrospect and thought that my winning days are behind me and I couldn't surpass it now.
Rigel is α Oriones
that's all I wanted to say
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| let me redirect your attention to my friends |
[08 Mar 2008|09:08pm] |
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as much as I don't like to bring attention to myself unless in a very specific way that I want, I'd like to dedicate this post to the people who mademe better, worse, and crazier in the last, I don't know, 8 months?
( humanicus )
That's enought for this time
New things:
1. Using biological and chemistry terms as swear words (ECHINODERMATA! 2,2,3-TRIMETHYL-1,4-PENTADYNE![yes, i know there isn't such chemical])
2. Randomly thinking about mechanic forces, like when my car stops in a steep road, how many forces would it take to hold it?
3. Everytime I see dead leaves everywhere, I have the urge to scream "ZONA!" and search for a broom.
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| From the President of TGFC |
[03 Feb 2008|09:39am] |
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that UNGU song |
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......which stands for Trio Gembel Fan Club.
Maybe my Indonesian friends will understand more, but hell, watch it, it's too freakin' funny and those are my good friends, kay
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| Everything that keeps me together is falling apart |
[05 Jan 2008|03:00am] |
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Spoon - Black Like Me |
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Still can't sleep at frickin' 3 A.M. And I think my brother's just the same. And we both will fall asleep effortlessly on the bus. Hopefully. Because nothing is worse than not being able to sleep on a long, boring trip.
Someone's not going to sleep tonight.
I wonder how this will adapt to the schoolday. It will quickly I guess. As long as I'm not sleeping on classes, I'm fine.
It sucks to think that in 21 days time I'm coming back to a place where I have way more communication than ever before yet I still feel I'm lonely. Here I might be a loser spending way too much of my time on the internet (with alternating times going bicycle-riding), but at least I can relateto something.
Why does life seem so miserable after I move out?
*sigh*threetwoandahalfyears*sigh*
God, I have become such a whiner
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| Someday You Will Die Somehow And Something's Gonna Steal Your Carbon |
[03 Jan 2008|04:14am] |
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The Decemberists - Culling of The Ford |
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It'a about 4:15 AM
I haven't slept. Yet. My eyes are burning but they wouldn't shut. And my stomach hurts so bad. But it's only been 4 hours since I last ate.
Before I was listening to a Death Cab-Modest Mouse-Spoon triathlon but since the last hour or so I've been listening myself to The Decemberists, and that made me dizzy. Like 'head over the clouds' dizzy (or high dizzy?)
Man, my biological clock is fucked up and now I'm sad, depressed, and I don't know who I am.
Now I want to puke
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| Betcha think you had to but it doesn't feel right |
[02 Jan 2008|12:30am] |
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Spoon - Don't You Evah |
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There are some new likings of mine I would like to report.
My instable condition has drawn me to some abundant amount of Modest Mouse and Death Cab musing, thus re-conducting my crushes to the adorable lyricists of each band. What can I say, chubby sensitive indie rockers are my kind of guys.
And I'm magnetically attracted to Spoon, very especially their track "Don't You Evah" which is ZOMG track of the year 2007 coming so late. So alluring. Like Britt Daniel, yes please.
ASDL is awesome. WHY OH WHY does this thing came when I'm not a permanent resident of the house anymore.
Yes, I'm posting on the middle of the night because I'm bored, just like the old days which I really missed.
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| Dua ribu delapan |
[01 Jan 2008|12:02am] |
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So this is the new year..........and I don't feel any different
Blah, first entry at midnight of the year. Funny how the new year countdown on each TV channel is always different. The total interval could reach about half a minute or so.
Then again, happy new year
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| Half hour goodbyes |
[24 Dec 2007|07:43am] |
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that theme song from Mr.Bean fon the TV |
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*yawn*
I slept for only like, 5 hours. But it's all good since I'm more likely to fall asleep in the 3 hour trip to Pekanbaru.
Just minutes ago, my dad gave me the news that my school was robbed, and 72 million Rupiah (hmm, about US$8000-ish) was gone. Hahaha just crap. I'll run CSI:SMAN Plus just for that.
And I'm having the "NOTFUCKINGBACKAGAIN" syndrome. But I have to, in order to hand out my assignments, finish my remedials, then leave
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| Year end wrap up |
[23 Dec 2007|08:48pm] |
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LCD Soundsystem - Someone Great |
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This year was pretty, um, different. Not horrible different, not awesome different. Just 'different'. Now that I'm in jail dorm school. A very strict one indeed, resulting in my drastic lacking of irony and inspiration.
Anyway, this
( resolution review, month by month events,etc. )
I'm dry, hopeless, and dumber. I hope I won't be next year
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| Another pluslife odyssey |
[27 Nov 2007|09:58am] |
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Yo, sup homies
We had this big show last week, which is a poetry reading competition and writing stuff competition held by the student council.I was the documentation crew. It was tiring. Buy somehow the minister of Education came to our school, and looked around. He entered my class. Yay.
I edited the badges for the show, and when everyone noticed my photoshop skillz, my coolness rating went up up and away.
13! days before the comet comes home.
You know what sucks about dorm school? You have to go to all this shits with the seniors. We have a big problem with the 11th graders. Which sucks, because though I don't contribute anything to the problem, my ass is in stake, because they chase everyone in our class.
I often get very thirsty in classes. I'm in English class, by the way.
Don't hit trees on the way
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| I am the continuer of the skyline |
[05 Nov 2007|09:49am] |
That afternoon I was thinking about someone. And then I saw a rainbow in left, and an amazing sunset in my right. For all the happy thoughts and predictions, I smiled.
It's been quite a while, eh.
Life has been quite quiet and stuff. I've been into debate coaching lately. At some point it interferes with my lessons, which is great at some point. We began Astronomy training also and I think I'm noted by the teacher. At least he remembers me.
My superior idol is not coming back until Desember. WTFARGH. But let's just hope for the best for him, and let him pass the national team selections and get a gold medal on it
Anyway, I have the cool photo of that rainbow and sunset
( i was thinking of you. )
I love the SMAN Plus sky.
Don't hit any trees on the way
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| this is the "IDONTWANTTOCOMEFUCKINGBACK" syndrome |
[18 Oct 2007|02:57pm] |
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Today is Thursday. I'm going back on Sunday.
And Today I woke up with the dorm's militarie-esque wake up alarm ringing in my head. I was going to wake up with the thought "Oh God, I'm still sleepy, but nonetheless, I must wake up whether I like it or not" until it rings "WAIT A MINUTE, THIS IS MY HOUSE" and then proceed to continue sleep.
I hate it how my mindset is always very passive and uncondescending on the pluslife whereas my ego is heavily scrunched up. Dude, this is unhealthy.
Sorry if I've been whiny and speaking nonsense lately, but I just freakin' hate this.
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| This is where the road parts and where it starts to take shape |
[10 Oct 2007|08:28pm] |
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Evening, lovelies
I'm enjoying these day-offs purely as a getaway, spending all day long relaxing and/or doing nothing. Maybe add on reading astronomy books and that damn constitutions book but meh, never lasts more than 5 minutes.
All the righteous idealism I hold on to at Plus seems to disappear. All the modernistic-soceity values never seen reappeared again.
Okay, to the happy stuff.
It's odd how somehow I've acquired a fan. Maybe it's usual to some people, but to me it's like "oh..huh..wow". But he's quite a nice guy as I know it, but I'm rather creeped out.
Lately, I've been called beautiful. beautiful. Maybe you've been called beautiful everyday, but not me. It's special. I've been always called smart, clever, nice, sweet, but never beutiful. Sad, isn't it? But there's nothing to be sad about now.
By the way, I'm still having an identity crisis and fucking hate the people who are trying to change me back there
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| A conventional post which is actually the first from here |
[22 Sep 2007|09:23am] |
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Lately I have a certain fondness on The Killers.
Before I came back to hell, Dinan gave me a Killers shirt, which I have been wearing frequently, because it smells like her room, and it reminds me of home. And I've been hesitant to wash it.
I think my English is fairly decreasing here, since I seldom listen to English music, because my ears have been blasted with crappy Indonesian/ajeb-ajeb music. While compared to my junior high, the English has degraded a few levels. I couldn't blame them, though. They do come from far away regions without sufficient English media.
Other I think I've lost:
1. Bass playing skillz
2. Photoshopping skillz
3. Certainity about my self-identity
4. A little bit of 'coolness'
But I'm still that one chick every guy's intimidated of
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| As sweet as sixteen |
[07 Sep 2007|08:25am] |
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the malay sounds of Pak D |
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So today I am legal to ride a motorcycle.
Now I'm suspicious about people around, I think I'm going to get pranked, since that is the tradition here. And the whole 10th grade now knows that today is my birthday. Blah blah
Wished there were some cakes, though
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